Sunday, May 30, 2010
Saturday, May 29, 2010
I feel like Miss. Cranky today
I wish I had a camera... pictures makes blogs more interesting....
I went for a spin the past two days and had some really amazing moments to reflect. All I do is think and think some more. I am really tired of thinking. I feel like all my thoughts and ideas are just group together in one big pile. Maybe it's because I haven't allowed myself to take a day off since the 3rd. Today is almost over and then I am only one day way from having one day off.
That's what I really need, is a day to sleep in, have breakfast in bed, and then clean my room. There's something about clutter that I hate. When something is a mess, I need to put everything back in it's place or else it just doesn't make sense to me. I hate it when my room look like a tornado went through it, because it really does. I hate when my bathroom's a mess and I can't find anything..
...maybe after Monday I'll have a stronger thought process...
I went for a spin the past two days and had some really amazing moments to reflect. All I do is think and think some more. I am really tired of thinking. I feel like all my thoughts and ideas are just group together in one big pile. Maybe it's because I haven't allowed myself to take a day off since the 3rd. Today is almost over and then I am only one day way from having one day off.
That's what I really need, is a day to sleep in, have breakfast in bed, and then clean my room. There's something about clutter that I hate. When something is a mess, I need to put everything back in it's place or else it just doesn't make sense to me. I hate it when my room look like a tornado went through it, because it really does. I hate when my bathroom's a mess and I can't find anything..
...maybe after Monday I'll have a stronger thought process...
Wednesday, May 26, 2010
Where ever you go no matter the weather, always bring your own sunshine.
I love . It has so many different stories and quotes that can help lift my spirits when I need it the most.
On Tuesday evenings my parents and who ever else want to join do a training walk around the Charles River. It was so amazing out. I don't know if it was because of the company, or the new found motivation that I have discovered, but there was something about walking that just made me so happy. I think it was knowing that I am changing my life. I am growing and exploring. (I tried my first BBQ chicken sub this afternoon..it was delish) I finally feel like I am doing what I want to do. I'm not being manipulated by anyone else's ideas, dreams, or power. I have found my own power and it's beauitful.
We took pictures yesterday. It's been a long time since, I've been in front of a camera and since I've held a camera. I hope those two activities happen more in my life. I can't wait to post some of the pictures from the training walks on here. Blogs are always more fun with pictures!
I can't believe the amount of support we've recieved for The Overnight. It's t-minus 1 month away and I've reached $1,821.81. Do you know how amazing it feels to know that many people care about my brothers or my family. Thank you from the bottom of my heart. It makes me want to cry each and everytime I see a new donation.
<3
On Tuesday evenings my parents and who ever else want to join do a training walk around the Charles River. It was so amazing out. I don't know if it was because of the company, or the new found motivation that I have discovered, but there was something about walking that just made me so happy. I think it was knowing that I am changing my life. I am growing and exploring. (I tried my first BBQ chicken sub this afternoon..it was delish) I finally feel like I am doing what I want to do. I'm not being manipulated by anyone else's ideas, dreams, or power. I have found my own power and it's beauitful.
We took pictures yesterday. It's been a long time since, I've been in front of a camera and since I've held a camera. I hope those two activities happen more in my life. I can't wait to post some of the pictures from the training walks on here. Blogs are always more fun with pictures!
I can't believe the amount of support we've recieved for The Overnight. It's t-minus 1 month away and I've reached $1,821.81. Do you know how amazing it feels to know that many people care about my brothers or my family. Thank you from the bottom of my heart. It makes me want to cry each and everytime I see a new donation.
<3
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
To kick things off...
I knew I needed to keep on track with this blog... Sorry friends! Diane's back! I've had a pretty intense weekend which made me realized the qualitiesI have. To be honest, growing up with such trauma has an effect on. It can alter perception about one's self. I've always been extremely hard on myself and never giving myself enough credit. I'm done being extremely hard on myself.
I owe a huge thank you to everyone in the last 6 months of my life have helped me get to the place I am now. A special thank you is owed to my friend Laura. I remember when she first started a blog and she explained to me that she was going to be a writer. Well Laura, a Congratulates. You are an amazing writer. This piece proofs it. I love you lady..
A Brother's Love Lives Forever
By Laura Paine
It isn't very often that I find myself to be genuinely proud of someone. I've watched a number of people with great potential fail to recognize and exercise that potential. Often times, they have been people I dated, but in just as many cases they have been friends. Lately, I have been watching a good friend of mine make some really big changes in her life.
My friend Diane has had a really rough go at it. Without getting into details that are not immediately available to the public, I will simply talk about one of the things in her life that she has been working hard to move forward from.
When she was ten years old she lost her oldest brother, Robert, in a car accident. Three months later, her brother Joseph committed suicide. She felt ashamed that her brother felt he couldn't continue living with Robert and it is something that her and her family have had to live with and work through for the last thirteen years. Ever since I first met Diane, this has been an issue that was still having a major impact on her life, because in a way, she never really dealt with it. She was too young to fully understand when it happened, but old enough to know that her life would never be the same.
A few months ago she asked me to write a press release for her because she was going to be taking part in the American Foundation for Suicide Prevention's Out of the Darkness walk. She told me that she couldn't let this hurt her anymore.
"This is what I am doing for myself and my family to move forward. This organization is helping change the preconceived notions of suicide -- that it shouldn't be viewed as a negative, but to change the ideas and embrace the lives of those lost,” she said. “I understand there are a tremendous amount of causes in the world to help out people here and there, but this cause is about life, the very foundation which we need to build and help out one another every day. By supporting this cause it could make a difference of a sister getting the pleasure of watching an older brother scare off a boyfriend or a date to the prom.”
I have seen Diane in some of her worst states and I am so grateful to say that I have seen her in some of her best. She has raised more than $2,500 for her team, A Brother's Love Lives Forever, and has taken some serious strides in helping herself move forward from the psychological and emotional issues it has caused. I have had the pleasure of seeing her discover new loves in life, like working for non-profit organizations and I have had the chance to listen to her tell me about how she finally feels beautiful. I've had the honor of reading and editing her college essay so she continue her education to become the kind of successful woman she has always wanted to be.
The reason I am writing this is because today, Diane sent me a text message saying that she is going to her first survivors meeting. No matter how many times I say it to her, I do not think it is enough. So here it is, for everyone to see.
Diane, I am so incredibly proud of you. Watching you take control of your life and helping you in anyway I can has been such an amazing inspiration. It is not every day that I see people who have experienced extreme grief, loss or hardship overcome the sadness and struggle to really make their lives what they want. It is hard to take ownership of things that have happened to you, that are outside of your control, but you have done it.
I'm so excited to continue helping you through in any way that I can and I look forward to sharing many more bonfires and bottles of wine with you. I'm glad that, despite our rough patches, we have remained friends. I am always comforted by the fact that if I need support, I know I can lean and cry on your shoulder.
You're an amazing, inspiring young woman. You have all of my love and support.
To anyone reading this, if you feel compelled, please donate money to A Brother's Love Lives Forever by clicking here.
I owe a huge thank you to everyone in the last 6 months of my life have helped me get to the place I am now. A special thank you is owed to my friend Laura. I remember when she first started a blog and she explained to me that she was going to be a writer. Well Laura, a Congratulates. You are an amazing writer. This piece proofs it. I love you lady..
A Brother's Love Lives Forever
By Laura Paine
It isn't very often that I find myself to be genuinely proud of someone. I've watched a number of people with great potential fail to recognize and exercise that potential. Often times, they have been people I dated, but in just as many cases they have been friends. Lately, I have been watching a good friend of mine make some really big changes in her life.
My friend Diane has had a really rough go at it. Without getting into details that are not immediately available to the public, I will simply talk about one of the things in her life that she has been working hard to move forward from.
When she was ten years old she lost her oldest brother, Robert, in a car accident. Three months later, her brother Joseph committed suicide. She felt ashamed that her brother felt he couldn't continue living with Robert and it is something that her and her family have had to live with and work through for the last thirteen years. Ever since I first met Diane, this has been an issue that was still having a major impact on her life, because in a way, she never really dealt with it. She was too young to fully understand when it happened, but old enough to know that her life would never be the same.
A few months ago she asked me to write a press release for her because she was going to be taking part in the American Foundation for Suicide Prevention's Out of the Darkness walk. She told me that she couldn't let this hurt her anymore.
"This is what I am doing for myself and my family to move forward. This organization is helping change the preconceived notions of suicide -- that it shouldn't be viewed as a negative, but to change the ideas and embrace the lives of those lost,” she said. “I understand there are a tremendous amount of causes in the world to help out people here and there, but this cause is about life, the very foundation which we need to build and help out one another every day. By supporting this cause it could make a difference of a sister getting the pleasure of watching an older brother scare off a boyfriend or a date to the prom.”
I have seen Diane in some of her worst states and I am so grateful to say that I have seen her in some of her best. She has raised more than $2,500 for her team, A Brother's Love Lives Forever, and has taken some serious strides in helping herself move forward from the psychological and emotional issues it has caused. I have had the pleasure of seeing her discover new loves in life, like working for non-profit organizations and I have had the chance to listen to her tell me about how she finally feels beautiful. I've had the honor of reading and editing her college essay so she continue her education to become the kind of successful woman she has always wanted to be.
The reason I am writing this is because today, Diane sent me a text message saying that she is going to her first survivors meeting. No matter how many times I say it to her, I do not think it is enough. So here it is, for everyone to see.
Diane, I am so incredibly proud of you. Watching you take control of your life and helping you in anyway I can has been such an amazing inspiration. It is not every day that I see people who have experienced extreme grief, loss or hardship overcome the sadness and struggle to really make their lives what they want. It is hard to take ownership of things that have happened to you, that are outside of your control, but you have done it.
I'm so excited to continue helping you through in any way that I can and I look forward to sharing many more bonfires and bottles of wine with you. I'm glad that, despite our rough patches, we have remained friends. I am always comforted by the fact that if I need support, I know I can lean and cry on your shoulder.
You're an amazing, inspiring young woman. You have all of my love and support.
To anyone reading this, if you feel compelled, please donate money to A Brother's Love Lives Forever by clicking here.
Wednesday, May 5, 2010
I know I'm a slacker with this
Oh man, what a beautiful day outside!! I haven't moved from my bed yet, but it looks amazing. ha, I know I can be lazy and I'm super lazy this week. Not good. Anyways, Sunday I did ride into work and I loved it. It took me just about an hour to get from Woburn to Brookline and an hour and half on the way home because I was so tired. It wasn't a bad spin on the single speed. I know I need a road bike, but I do love the pink gangster bike.
Yesterday was amazing for a workout. I took a spin around the pond. It's so nice to be around such a beautiful place in the morning. Afterwards, I ran some errands and then I ended up walking the Charles with my ma. I loved it! It was so much fun and perfect out. I do love spending time outside and enjoying the weather.
Speaking of, I need to get out of bed and get my riding stuff together. It looks too nice out to stay in doors all day. I can't wait!! I've also been reading an amazing book "How to be Single" by Liz Tuccillo. I would high recommend it.
Also, Honey Moon has hit the shelves!! I was so excited on Monday night when I made that discovery. It was perfect for the Bruins game.
Until next time blog world.
Yesterday was amazing for a workout. I took a spin around the pond. It's so nice to be around such a beautiful place in the morning. Afterwards, I ran some errands and then I ended up walking the Charles with my ma. I loved it! It was so much fun and perfect out. I do love spending time outside and enjoying the weather.
Speaking of, I need to get out of bed and get my riding stuff together. It looks too nice out to stay in doors all day. I can't wait!! I've also been reading an amazing book "How to be Single" by Liz Tuccillo. I would high recommend it.
Also, Honey Moon has hit the shelves!! I was so excited on Monday night when I made that discovery. It was perfect for the Bruins game.
Until next time blog world.
Saturday, May 1, 2010
What a few days!!
First, Thank you to everyone that came out for the Dough Raiser at Uno's on Thursday night! I don't know the actual amount, but I do know the amount of sales we're over $1,000 which means the AFSP will recieve over 20%, plus I believe we get a bonus because I work there part-time. Please, stay tuned for the results!!
Now, I've fallen off of my exercise track trying to balance life. I've become so lazy this past week. I wanted to ride into the city this morning for work but I over slept. There's something a little difficult trying to wake up at 6am on a Saturday morning. haha. Tomorrow I will be riding into the city. I promise. I work along the Walk for Hunger's route, I would really rather not fight with traffic or parking or closed streets.However, I am really excited to people watch tomorrow!
Personally, I feel like this walk is starting to take me on an adventure that I never expected. I kinda of love it!
Now, I've fallen off of my exercise track trying to balance life. I've become so lazy this past week. I wanted to ride into the city this morning for work but I over slept. There's something a little difficult trying to wake up at 6am on a Saturday morning. haha. Tomorrow I will be riding into the city. I promise. I work along the Walk for Hunger's route, I would really rather not fight with traffic or parking or closed streets.However, I am really excited to people watch tomorrow!
Personally, I feel like this walk is starting to take me on an adventure that I never expected. I kinda of love it!
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